alexrose1039

It's been a while...

alexrose@hotmail.co.uk — Sun, 10 May 2009 18:38:34 GMT

it's been a while live journal. oh well, might as well start updating now.

I just realised today......i have trust issues. I trust EVERYONE. well...not everyone. but i meet people and after hanging out with them once or twice i sorta...trust them. That's gotta stop. I keep getting hurt. Everytime.

I'm not here on LJ to complain about how bad my life is...because to be frank, it isnt bad. Not at all. But some parts of it has its downside. Such as my situation with friends at the moment. It hasnt been easy. And at the moment it just keeps getting harder and harder.

Ive always wondered if anyone trusts me? Because...i trust them. And it's stupid.

I trust people easily, and then i cling, and then they get angry at me and leave me.

i dont have that much emotional baggage at all. i just think that they find me annoying. and im too afraid to confront them, because its annoying when people ask if theyre annoying. well...i dont mind people asking me, ill give an honest answer. but. other people might find it annoying.

whatever. life goes on.

it's been a while

alexrose@hotmail.co.uk — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 20:54:24 GMT

hey, it's been a while since i last updated here so here's the 411 on what i've been up to lately.

1. exams. oh deary me. they could have gone ALOT better..but i didn't fail so..WOOHOO!!! but got two As, a load of Bs and one or two Cs. so ill do better in the next exams, which are the big ones. warning to all you poor people in england who are choosing you GCSEs subject...Drama is not a doss. its bloody hard.

2. New friends!! Lately, my very good friends Louise and Clare have introduced me to a whole new bunch of people! All amazing people and i luff them very much!!!

3. must...keep..cleeeaan. KYAH! there's a real nasty virus going around england at the moment. they call it the "norovirus" and the symptoms are: vomiting & diarrhea. i am scared to death of vomiting so naturally i am doing all i can to not catch it which means, keeping seriously clean, eating good foods, lots of vitamin C, and running a mile when i see anyone at school who has had or might have the virus. *nod nod* sad i know.

so whats been keeping me busy in all my free time? well, theres Graham Norton (my favorite poof), Simon pegg (freaking love the man), drawing (badly), star gate and anime. lots and lots of anime.

And here comes the not so nice part of this post. i have so much to be happy about, and i take it forgranted...but somehow, sometimes i just cant be happy. i dont like my self-image and alot of the time i dont like who i am. i wonder why people like me, and im just thankful that they do because i would not survive without my lufferly ones. especially a certain someone called Hayley, my best friend.

So, i have a new years resolution...well maybe not new years, should have done that a month ago. lets just call it a resolution. I'm going to lose weight, see my friends more, work harder in school and just generally be a happier person! <3

snow and sickness

alexrose@hotmail.co.uk — Wed, 24 Jan 2007 15:53:59 GMT

good news! it snowed in england!!! woohoo!
bad news! it's all melted!!

good news! ive been at home for 3 days writting fan fic!
bad news! i've been at home sick for 3 days

good news! i'm going back to school tomorrow and i get to see my friends!
bad news! i'm going back to school tomorrow!

love to all!
alex
~xxx~